Well day one of my healing journey. One post closer to find answers as to "why" I'm so broken! You are probably asking yourself "why", why create a blog, why make it live and why tell everyone about your problems. Why not deal with life, suck it up and carry on like everyone else, there are people out there worse off than you, stop being a baby and deal with life. Well my answer to that "why" is I don't care what you think because I need my "why" and I need to heal. To understand me you need to understand my story. So I'm gonna start from the beginning and start creating the picture for you... I'm the oldest of 4, and was brought up in a some what disfunctional family of 4 kids and 2 parents. I grew up in a household with constant yelling, belittling and disfunction. In the time that I grew up this was normal, or I thought so. I learnt many things that would shape my life as I am now. I learnt that sorry would be a word u...